Shame: I suck.
Guilt: I made 17 mistakes in 15 minutes.
Response to shame: I am never doing this again. In fact, I'm never going to show my face here again.
Response to guilt: I will practice more next time and apologize to Fr. Anthony.
So which do I choose? In reality, most of the time, both. Today, mostly the former.
My class (theology, psychology, literature all rolled into one) is fascinating. I'm learning lots and procrastinating lots and reading lots and generally loving it. And it's incredible how many times shame / guilt / forgiveness comes up in my day-to-day life.
More later. For now, I'm off to get over my shame before work time by watching a movie or doing something else equally mindless.
2 days ago